Cheerful?

 I feel…

Crippled by life

Am I doing wrong?

Am I doing right?

Shackled by bonds

Of dutiful might

Without control

Without light

My bones growing old 

And so numb to the cold

I feel

I have lost

All ability

To feel.

Powerless

Without choice

Without a rudder

Drifting into the sea

Of what used to be

Limitless possibilities.

I let the current take me 

To depths of the mind unknown

To my self of before

Who am I now 

matters not 

But who I want to be 

Remains a mystery…

Or not.

It’s suddenly so clear, and it came almost effortlessly.

A father J and P can admire

A soul who weathered the icy fire

A man reborn with resolve

Who crawled through the muck and mire.

A hubby for A-

A strong partner of silence 

A man without absence

Ears never tired.

This route consists of a few last hurdles

Cut the route

Family time

Good news is

I see the finish line

I don’t want them to hate me

I want to guide them 

Be there for them

In good times and bad

But I don’t want to be that guy 

Who’s always coming down on them.

I used to be so happy.  Naturally.  Organically.  I still can be. I will not stop, and I will be.  One step at a time. 

Shiver

 I shiver at your touch

Adrift in a sea 

Of distant memory.

It sounds like too much

But I cannot believe

How swiftly I retreat

Like a turtle into its shell

I’m scared of what will become

Of the heart’s evolution

As we revolve around the sun.

As we float on

This shabby raft of destiny

I know how fine we’ll be.

Four bobbing souls of gold

Intertwined at the seams

We’ll find security 

Like a turtle into its shell

Aware of what will become

Of the heart’s evolution

As we revolve around the sun.

Over

 I’m over it.

Downhill from here , ol chum

Cold

 I want to 

Be comforted

And consoled

But for some reason 

You’re so cold.

As I age

And see my light fade

I look to you

But you’re so cold.

When The timing’s right

To heat up the night

I must ask

But you’re so cold.

What I want

What I need

Inflict more pain

After the deed

I can’t align

With your vibes 

And sadness grows

Evermore each day.

The rift began

So slowly

But soon strikes

In ways swift.

I hate asking

So emasculating

To beg, plead, and coerce but

 be turned away.

I feel numb

To your touch

Because you’re so cold

But it hurts more every time.

Patter

 The pitter patter of little feet

Searching to and fro

For something yummy to eat

When they are gone

How I miss them so

Without them

I wouldn’t know where to go.

Elianna

 Love overflows, so gold,  like a rolling ray of sunshine. so divine kissing dew who knew how weak but so strong love can be, righting wrongs, composing songs, it’s magical.  This babe so sweet like a marshmallow treat, I’m in love.  Congrats and her I can’t wait to meet!

Car Chase

 I’ll tell you about one of the wildest PG-rating days I’ve ever seen. I used to carry in the projects in Richmond, Virginia, 23223.  It was a light day so I was out there early.  At 08:45 am, I was into my first relay when I first heard coming my way Detroit muscle revving followed by distant sirens, thinking ‘Oh, boy.  This oughta be good.’ I then saw two cop cars chasing a white Charger, and they were flying!  I kept going and caught up with Mrs. Williams, who had been living there for five decades, about an hour later.  She told me, “Them boys gonna hear it from me for waking me up.  A girl needs her beauty sleep.”  She had me cracking up.