Penny Fadeaway

 I feel myself 

Fading away

I don’t know who this guy is

But I fear he’s here to stay

It’s Not evolution

It’s Not adaptation

Just a reminder that 

Nothing gold ever stays

I don’t know why

I don’t know how

But I pray 

My family keeps me around somehow

I

Really

I’m not concerned

Necessarily

Because

People channge

But I just feel myself

Fading away

Like dust

I don’t know 

Or better yet

Like sand

In someone’s hand

And before you know

It’s gone

I don’t know 

What’s gonna be left of me

When all is said and done

I just

I feel like

As I gaze into the mirror

I wonder about the man looking back

Who could that be

How could that be 

I look at myself

Like I’m just a distant memory

Not really there

Shifting

Shrinking 

Graying

Doing all

But ever staying

I see myself fading away

But I’m still there!

I’m present…am I?

I don’t know

It’s unsettling 

Am I an outsider

Am I lonely?

I’m not alone

But I don’t know 

Exactly what’s happening

Anymore

I look at the world

None of it makes sense

People look crazy to me

And I to them no doubt.

I’m not engaged to social media

And from sports and AI, I indeed stray away.

I wonder if 

me quitting drinking 

Is contributing 

to this sensation

Is this clarity?

Revealing the masquerade

Of a wayward society?

Am I fading away?

Perhaps, but perhaps not.

I can’t quite tell you

Of what’s to come

Or What will be left

When all is said and done.