The Day I Lost You

Alice in Chains - Down in a Hole/Nutshell

Shards of my soul have fallen into the void.  Tumbling down, I see them escape, end over end into the darkness, and as I reach out to retrieve them, I pause and realize that I don't want to drop in and lose myself.  So I pull back to save myself as a stubborn tear follows in after them.

The fear of losing you suddenly became true.  I thought we'd grow old together while we watched our kids play, but people change and things are never the same.  Am I holding on to you as you are or the memory of who you were?  My door will always be open for when you return, but I can't sacrifice an iota of attention to you anymore.

I thought that, several months ago, that the blurry dreams of separation were false and baseless.  I should have known then, that my sight was clear,  but I was still surprised by how quickly twenty five years end.  I hope I'm wrong, but for now, I'll leave it and you be.

I'm done chasing a lost, scared child who wants to be alone.  My desire to protect and preserve has dwindled, and instead, a decreasing amount of hope trickles in.  You think you've got it figured out?  Well, I wish you the best as you flounder to find home.